My Maker is like a beautiful but broken marble. Every so often I would forget. I’d take hold of my elaborate-colored marble and I’d want to play with her. I’d hold on tight (with my hands, with my all the strength of my hungry need) to make sure it wouldn’t slip through my fingers while I ran around the world showing my marble all the things that were almost as beautiful and brilliant as she was. I’d laugh just thinking how happy this would’ve , could’ve , (should’ve?) made my marble! How proud she would be that she was finally being recognized and praised for what she was! I would rejoice. Well, I almost did. I always forgot myself and, alas, would realize in a sudden pang of pain that I had again come close, way too close, looking for warmth. Tried to hold on too tight. Once again, I had forgotten my marble was broken and its jagged edges had sliced open scars that had almost healed, and fresh new liquid pain poured down my fingers, down my hands to my elbows; and I’d see how it started to cover my body like a strong rain covers a flower: brutally. Despiadada. Drops like darts to the petals. And like the flower I’d stand there just accepting the slashes from every falling drop that burned my legs. The goddamned reminder of a robbed childhood. That blood. All of that shameful reminder of what caused the earth to tremble and my beautiful marble to finally shatter right where the cracks were showing. Now broken. Useless. Dangerous. Still very much needed and wanted.
Marble.
Maker.
Whether she was showing her true colors or sharpening her edges it was a sight to see. I heard it all the time. It just was not the experience from my seat. We were not all watching the channel.
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